Golfing

Tomorrow he is off on a week long golfing trip with his best friend.  I truly hope he has a fabulous time.  And I hope he comes back to me.

He wasn't able to talk to me after noon or so today.  I had hoped he would at least say goodbye.  After the body bliss of yesterday, I'm feeling vulnerable and a little needy.

I know he worked today, and when he should have been doing laundry and packing yesterday he was making love to me.  So of course his evening was full.  And then there is his wife. I try not to think about what they are doing in the hours before he is away from her for a week.  I know what I would be doing.  I know what I just did.

Please please please let me hear from him.
Please let our plans for when he returns be real.
Please help me have a little faith.

Oh God I think I'm falling.